Solitude

WARNING: emotions alert—My household as a child was filled with folks struggling with depression (ranging from mild to crazy severe). Though I was fortunate to avoid sinking, this expressed how I imagined it must be like to feel you are better off alone,

spoiler alert...you’re not.

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I sit in a chair and I stare into air

I talk to myself ‘cus there’s nobody there

And myself is always ready with an answer

I can always depend on myself as a friend

And as long as I’m conscious the talk never ends

Sometimes I think I’m more than I could ask for

All alone and why—all alone and why

It’s a quarter to eight in my normalcy state

I stare at the wall and the wall’s doing great

I wonder what it’d be thinking, if it were thinking

I’d walk up to it and look in its eyes

I’d ask it a question, but get no replies

Well at least I can say, “I gave it a try”

All alone and why—all alone and why

I sit in a chair and I stare into air

I talk to myself ‘cus there’s nobody there

And myself is always ready with an answer

All alone and why—all alone and why (repeat through outro)

Rosemary and sage and power and rage

You want to learn more so you turn the page—was it worth it to you?

Was it worth it to you and was it worth it to me

Lemon and lime and a rhythm and rhyme

Couldn’t do much ‘til I found the time—was a fine time

I used it well and soon I’ll find

That everyone that I thought was sane

Is standing out in the pouring rain—can you feel the pain

I feel the pain every time it rains

And all the trauma that soon be faced

Is vanishing without a trace—I lost my pace

But I’ll keep my guard up just in case