Solitude
Updated: Sep 3, 2020
WARNING: emotions alert—My household as a child was filled with folks struggling with depression (ranging from mild to crazy severe). Though I was fortunate to avoid sinking, this expressed how I imagined it must be like to feel you are better off alone,
spoiler alert...you’re not.
I sit in a chair and I stare into air
I talk to myself ‘cus there’s nobody there
And myself is always ready with an answer
I can always depend on myself as a friend
And as long as I’m conscious the talk never ends
Sometimes I think I’m more than I could ask for
All alone and why—all alone and why
It’s a quarter to eight in my normalcy state
I stare at the wall and the wall’s doing great
I wonder what it’d be thinking, if it were thinking
I’d walk up to it and look in its eyes
I’d ask it a question, but get no replies
Well at least I can say, “I gave it a try”
All alone and why—all alone and why
I sit in a chair and I stare into air
I talk to myself ‘cus there’s nobody there
And myself is always ready with an answer
All alone and why—all alone and why (repeat through outro)
Rosemary and sage and power and rage
You want to learn more so you turn the page—was it worth it to you?
Was it worth it to you and was it worth it to me
Lemon and lime and a rhythm and rhyme
Couldn’t do much ‘til I found the time—was a fine time
I used it well and soon I’ll find
That everyone that I thought was sane
Is standing out in the pouring rain—can you feel the pain
I feel the pain every time it rains
And all the trauma that soon be faced
Is vanishing without a trace—I lost my pace
But I’ll keep my guard up just in case